Keep trying, keep striking (even when your faith is shaken)

Welcome myself back to blogging, to bitching, to swearing, to venting out all my frustrations....
to expressing my happiness, joy, contentment about life........

Wait.

First and foremost, I don't know why I deleted my blog. But I guess I just wana say, "things have been pretty challenging"
I have to thank those friends who've always been there to hear me rant. I hope things are ok for you guys too! Everything will be fine in 3 months time :) Or lesser than that.
Talking about that, O levels is in 60 odd days. SAY BYE TO LIFE.

So moving along, CHINESE RESULTS CAME OUT YTD.
What the hell it was damn disappointing I dont care if you guys are laughing at me in THAT room(you know which room) becos my expectations were "too high" for myself.

I don't care about what you guys say. I have to admit things were pretty bad yesterday. It's like giving in your best shot but things don't turn out the way you wanted them to. But looking towards the brighter side, I know I gave in my best shot too last minute AND I CAN DO BETTER. I don't care if your'e gonna tell me "HUH YOU WANT TO RETAKE???" and all the shit alright?
Why me? Why do you guys have to make ME the one you're always talking about? That's why I said, you people are DAMN IT judgemental. (you guys know who you are)

I could have smack those 5 five words 'I will prove you wrong" right in your face just now but I knew I couldn't afford to do that. Firstly becos if I dont, it'll be a joke. Secondly becos you'll just go on yakking about livia tan. "you know livia is retaking her chinese"

But just so you know, I kinda feel honoured. There are so many, so many students who are planning on retaking, BUT YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME THE TALK ACROSS THE ROOM ^ ^

I can't explain how much I dislike you, really. Its my results NOT YOURS. Its my future NOT YOURS. I dont need ANY encouragement from you but shut the hell up pls.
If you have nothing nice to say don't say.

:)
So anyway, I don't care what you said to me today. I don't care if you've told me "did you hear what mrs ding told you?"
I don't care. If I dont try I'll never know.
And I believe with God, I can.
My results will just get brighter and brighter (got this from N)
And even if they dont, GOD HAS A PLAN.

Face it, youre screwed up.

I've moved on :) from yesterday's disappointment. From the human geog paper shit I had 2 weeks ago. I'm stronger now. Everything will be good.
No matter what, I have to carry on. We have to continue trying.
Becos only then, we'll have NO REGRETS:)

Hope you all out there are feeling better about chinese results. Whoever you guys are :) TRUST IN GOD no matter what. Even if your faith is dying, TALK TO HIM.